it's for you abah..

i know that abah won't read this entry..
but abah, i wrote this special for you..
my super duper hero..=)
an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY ABAH..

abah..are u still remember..when i'm in standard 6..anak abah ni byk sgt maen2 kn??with sports..pegi kem 2 kem ni..all of the family was so worried bout me..UPSR lg sket je..tapi xstudy pun kn?after skol, gt shower..pastu tros tgk tv..huhu..tapi abah xkesah pun..abah always said,
"i know you can do it..abah tau anak abah ni.."
hikhik..syg abah!abah slalu suh smayang hajat..blk skola kne jemaah ngan abah.. alhamdulillah.. when the result announced..i got it!huhu..abah laa org yg plg happy..abah cakap..
"adik kne jadi doc..nnt abah sakit..sng.."
abah mmg takut ngan doc pn..sbb tu nak anak die jadi doc..

abah..abah igt lg tak??that tyme..sme org dah dapat tawaran gi skola sains..but i didn't get anyone of it..abah calm me down..
"xpe..skola biasa pun xpe..dpt msk kls rancangan khas tu jgk kn??"
he smiled at me..even i know..deep inside his heart..he really sad..i'm sorry abah..

abah..abah igt lagi tak??ttbe adk dpt tawaran gi skola sheikh malik??skola agama..all of them wanna me go there..sbb skola tu pun skola top gak kt trg..but i don't wanna go there..tak nak gi skola agama..nanti kene pkai tudung labuh...hahha..i cried all day long..pastu abah pujuk...
"xnak pegi pun xpela..skola je kt skola skarang.."

abah..abah igt lagi tak??a month at that skoll..a got a letter..TAWARAN KE SEKOLAH BERASRAMA PENUH..i'm so happy...yes i am!adik terus call abah...abah had a meeting on that tyme..adk jerit2 kt abah..
"adk dpt skola sains!!yes! adik dpt"
adk dpt dgr suara hepy abh..kejap pastu..abah smpi umah..xtau laa brape abah pecut..he leave the meeting..abah read the letter..and hugged me tightly..
"TANIAH!", he said..

abah..abah igt lagi tak??my 1st month at scipp??i called home everyday..i cried and cried..it's my 1st tyme away from home..i asked u to pick me home..abah cakap..
"sabar laa..kte nak jadi doktor..weekend abah pegi"
every week abah and mak visited me..i don't care how far you travel just to visit me..what i know that tyme is..i want to meet both of you..just it..everytyme you come..after solat..abah mesti take a nap kat surau..penat sgt kot..3 jam driving..tapi adik xpenah kesah pun mse tu kan??abah sabar je..thanx abh!

abah..abah igt lagi tak??when PMR is just round the corner??i called you..just to shared with you..how worried i am..
"adik takut laa nak PMR"
pastu abah marah2
"anak abah sme berani2..xde takut2 ni"
abah ex-army..pantang anak die takut2 ni..then i sobbed..abah tanya dah xjwb dah..senyap je..
weekend tu abah ngan mak visited me..i'm quiet surprised..you didn't told me that you wanna come..mak cakap abah nyesal marah2 adik..hikhik..sayang abah!

abah..abah igt x??adik xdpt ambk rslt PMR..kite nak hntr mak teh g umrah kan??abah cakap call je..i warned everybody..don't ever gedik2 nak call skola eik..biar adik tau dlu..adk xconfident ngan my result..byk sgt maen2 mse tue..tapi xdapat tau jgk hari tu..office busy sgt..so we decided call esk..esk tu..abah xsng duduk..adk pun sme..after suduh xtdo pun..kte gilir2 call office..abah call dalam bilik abah..gne ur fon..adk call dlm blk adk..skali..they answered my cal..
once again..alhamdulillah..i got straight A's..lari2 msk bilik abh..lompat2 atas katil abah..jerit2..abah hepy sgt..mak kat dapur dgr adik jerit2..terus naek..mak nangis..and so with you..i'm so proud..dapat buat both of you hepy..alhamdulillah..

abah..abah igt lagi tak??on the way nak amk rslt SPM lak..kte stop breakfast..adk xlalu mkn..abh mrh..
"knape xnk mkn??nak biar perut kosong??nak gastrik??"
adk nangis..mak ckp ngan abh..
"jgn mrh..smlm pun xleh tdo nihh..risau laa tu"
pas makan..dlm kete adk senyap je..tapi nak dekat2 smpi tu..adk tny abah ngan abah..klu adk xdpt 10A xpe ke??
"abah ngan mak xkesah pun brpe..yg penting adk dah usaha..abah nampak tu"
i smiled..but i know..they really hope that i could gt straight A's..mak cakap..kalau boleh jgn lagi rndh dari result PMR..dalam kete adk dpt msg frm my teacher..she said i got 7A's..i tell you..
abah ngan mak nangis..but i don't knowboth of you nangis sbb hepy or frust..but i'm really frust with it..i hope i gt 8 and above..tapi bile smpi skola..and gt the result..
"taniah..awk dpt 8.."ckgu sahar ckp
"tipu arr ckgu..td miss sabby msg sy..sy dpt 7 je.."
ngan muka monyok sket ni..huhu
"lor..xcye tgk sndri.."
kire2 blk..btl laa..8..huhu..adik jerit pggl abah..
"adk dpt 8 laa bah..adk dpt 8!"
dis tyme adk nmpk..abh senyum..laen dri yg td..lagi lebar snym abh...pas kuar office 2..abh ckp..abh mmg target adk dpt 8 and above pun..alhamdulillah..abah siap nazar ag utk adk..

abah..abah igt lg tak??bila adk dpt msk JAD??abh laa org plg hepy..mse mle2 nk intrvw nak msk intensive..abah xdpt hntr..abh ada meeting kat kl..tapi abh call..mcm2 abah nasihat..alhamdulillah..dapat pun msk intensive..sbb doa abh kot..=)mse nak hntr adk gi KRM..
abah ngan mak pkai bju kaler sme..abah bju batik hijau..mak kurung hijau..muka abah hepy sgt...
adk lagi hepy dpt buat abah hepy..1st week kt stu abah dtg lg..intrvw nak msk JAD lak..abh teman gi intrvw..abh pilih bju adk..abh ckp..pkai yg lembut2 sket..kaler trg2 sgt..before masuk intrvw tu..macam2 abh pesan..huhu..macam abh pulak yg lagi cuak dari adk..kuar je dr blk 2..trs abh tny cmne..berkat doa abh..intrvw adk ok je..pas intrvw..adk gastrik..abh bli kan susu utk adk..kite tggu k.ya lme sgt kn??tapi abah suh adk baring kt abah..adk igt tu bah..

byk lagi adk nak tulis pasal abah..
tapi mst pnjg..sbb byk sgt abh dah korbankn utk adk..
i just can say thnx for it..
i promise you..
i'll make you proud of me..
xdpt jd doktor pun..
i'll make sure i'll be engineer..
adk jge abh nnt..
abah..pls take care of yourself..
makan ubt..adk nak abah tgk adk grad nnt..
mcm mne pun..
i'll make sure u'll be there that tyme..
ABAH..ADIK SAYANG ABAH SANGAT!!