Long distance relationship with Mr. Doctor

People ask me, how do we survive in the long distance relationship?
What's the secret to making a LDR work. And I will go like,
Err.. Ermm.. Umm.. Hmmm...
I don't know lah wey!
I don't think I'm an expert, nor do I think I'm perfect in any relationship.
 But, we have past half decade been together and 5 years in this long distance relationship.

Thousands miles away from each other. Can only meet once a year, during hari raya.

I myself can say it is not easy and it needs a lot of effort.
No, I didn't said that I'm proud with it, with how long we have been together even though we are far apart.
I.AM.SO.FREAKING.SCARED. And still.
There's no crystal ball that can predict how long a relationship will last.
I don't know what will happen tomorrow. Because everything is in Allah's hand.
And I believes that the long wait, the hopes and dreams, even your doas in every solat:
if she/he's not your jodoh planned by Him, she/he's still not.
But I'm still hoping that Syamim is the right one for me.

The distance is nothing, it is the first step that is difficult. I cried like an idiot, the day Syamim fly to Bandung. In the class you know. The body was in the class but
the mind and soul gone elsewhere.
I easily get emotional in few weeks after he leaved. People asking me about Syamim, seeing couple having dinner together, phone stay put without any ring.. 
It does tears me down. Wailed, helplessly.

We do text, Skype and talk on the phone daily but there's time when I went

"Hello baby!!"

And he went

"Tak boleh cakap sorry sorry." 

Woi, aku call jauh kot! Pffttttt

Booooooo doctors!

But, all in all, he tried to do the best for me. He gave all his hours when he had the chance.
Even we are far apart, we still do things together. Watching movies together. Having our meals together. Do homework together. Go for shopping together. And even sometime, we sleep together! Haha. One day if I have a chance to met the Skype inventor and any other applications that we used to keep in touch, I will shake their hands and say thank you. They are really save my life. Muahaha.

Here are some bullet points to really put in your back pocket. And I hammered this into my head too. Don't be jealous, trust each other and keep the faith. It's not only one to carry on a relationship, it takes two to tango. So, do give and take and most important is everything happen or tak puas hati, better said and expressed, rather than kept and suppressed. Discuss. Heart to heart. InshaAllah, it would get your relationship better.

Syamim keep reminding me that distance won't keep us far. How busy we are, how limited time we have to talk to each other. Yeah, he keep saying this because he is such a busy bee. When I am free, he is busy. When he free, I am busy. It's always like that. But it's always him who always missing in action. Class during the day and on call at the night. Following with another classes on the tomorrow morning. Who said dating to a doctor is easy?? I always pray to Allah, for grant me bundles of patience.

 From now on, this is what i will have to go through:

all the

baby-I-have-to-work

or

kejap-I-have-patients

or

kita-skype-later-tonight

Pfffffffffftttttttttt

Our movie date.

Candle light dinner on his birthday.

We have gone this far and it's already late to turn back. All I hope, we'd grow old together. It happens in the movies and I hope we will also see a happy ending. Ameen..

Little Things

Assalamualaikum.. Hola!

Wohh! Thursday already? It's hard to believe how time flies.

The clock is ticking. The data is not prepared yet. The dateline is on Tuesday.

And-I-am-so-dead.

C'mon simulator! Could you please work faster?

Haha. Put the blame on simulator. It's just a machine kot Elin.

I was late for lab today. Not because I woke up late.

But it's getting hard to find nice clothes to wear recently. Hehe.

Staring my wardrobe more than 20 minutes. 

It took me longer than I have to finish my plate!

Or maybe it's a hint for me to start shopping?
*naughty grin*

No, Monkey! No more clothes. 

But, the only exception for designer handbags :D

*naughty monkey*

So, I hopped on the bus around 10 AM.

It's about 10.20 AM when I arrived and to my surprise...

No one is here. Yet.

But

The door's not locked.

So, I know lah they still terbongkang inside. Cis.

C'mon laa wey! 10.20 AM already. It's not time to wake up yet?

(Today's favorite word: yet)

p/s: have you heard this song yet? Little Things by One Direction. I caught smiling like idiot while listening to this song. The lyrics is so cair! I think what makes One Direction lovable is they sing about loving an adoring girls' insecurities. Which I always hope my boyfriend/future husband will have that character. Gila tak happy if everyday he calls you beautiful and chase you for the rest of his life!

How busy is too busy?

I've been so busy these days. 

Dying with piles of works, datelines, and meetings.

There's no time to sit back and have a ha-ha now.

No play or fit time either. *Cries*

It feels like I've spend more time on my laptop, 

find ideas, brainstorm my research and discussing with people than anything else. 

One meeting after another until I can't even feel my legs!

But I'm trying to keep myself occupied so that time will fly fast fast fast until 3rd August,

then I hope everything will just slow down after that... slow down like a tortoise. Hehe.

For this week, I just have to do the simulation.

So, here I am! While waiting for the result. Not mencuri tulang, but mengisi masa.

Haha my roti canai rentung. Left it in pan, and go for bersiap. Come back and ta-daa. Already rentung.

Apart from having tiring weekdays, I dicided to join Amir Fitday.

We had futsal tournament at Nishi Oomiya on last Saturday.

It was really fun! Its been awhile since I've last went out and having fun with the girls.

But we didn't manage to go to semi-finals. Le sigh. 

So, what we did while waiting for other matches? 

Gossip-ing!

And the top topics discussed are marriage and brake up. Haha.

In our team, my batch's team, two of us just recently broke up with their boyfriend, 

while a friend of us will get married in this coming August. InshaAllah.

Praying for her that everything will go just as planned and 

to my friends who just broke up, don't worry..

One go, ten comes. 

Hehe.

With the Hachioji girls. On the way to Nishi Oomiya.

My team. Except Kah. She joined her locality's team.

After futsal we went for sushi and hit a karaoke session after that.

Since there's two of broken hearts joining us together, 

the song that have been chosen also..hurm, you know..

Typical songs for the broken hearts.. Haha

Trouble and We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift.

Can you imagine how was them singing that songs? Haha. 

Like they really mean it. 

But we really enjoyed it. Full of fun and laughter.

This giiiirl.. Haihh.. Nothing more to say lah.

Oh, and a stupid thing happened on my way back home!

I was in the same train with Berd heading to Shinjuku.

Because of we haven't had a chance to catch up with each other before,

we chit-chating until we didn't realize that we had just missed the stop

and the train was already heading back to Oomiya. 

That was a stupid thing we've done ever.

I swear. Haha.

*Face palm*

With Berd at Akabane, after missed the stop.

All in all, alhamdulillah for all the beautiful things that Allah bless me with.

Dream and Do.

dream big

Talked to Kak Ya earlier today. We will be working on a big project. 

I am so excited and I have my fingers crossed.

Really hope for the best and I hope that Allah will make it happen.

I already have the rough ideas of how it looks.

Now, I have to do a lot of researches and later, struggling with the proposal.

Hmm, research...proposal.. 

Of course, it is not easy and comes with big responsibilities. 

But I know I can do this.. InshaAllah..

Sure, there are risks involved and I could lose a lot of money.

But there are risks involved too if I'm not doing this.

All of life involves risk. So, let's give it a try. Who knows if my rezeki is here :)

I leave Him because only He knows the suffering

For every insult you throw my way and behind me,

I pray for nothing more 

but

for you to suffer twice as much as I did.

life guarantees.

We don't know what will happen tomorrow.

We don't even know what tomorrow will bring--

What our life will be.

"We have to take every moment as it comes, and be prepared for

heartbreak and devastation.

We are all human, making it through the toughest times. 

All we can do in life is hope and pray for the best and

live every moment as it's our last"

Life has no guarantee.

Today you are with your loved ones, tomorrow he/she is already with another, 
or you are with another.

Today you are happy with him/her, tomorrow he/she become your enemy.

Today you are excited to start planning for your dream wedding with him/her, tomorrow the wedding dress left untouched. 

There's no guarantee about anything and everything.

It is worrisome to think, frightening to ponder.

A dear friend of mine, spent 8 years in a relationship with a guy.
Got engaged for only 1 day, and broke up.
Which frightened me.