he's my everything..

"adik beli kete nanti upah abah jadi driver pun cukup la. xnak bayar gaji pun xpe..bagi abah tempat nak tido ngan makan pun da cukup. nasi ngn ikan goreng je pun xpe.jangan letak abah umah orang tua. jangan biar abah merempat kat tepi jalan.."

he's always said dat..he so worry if one day, his children not care bout him anymore.. everytime ktorg tgk cte seday*psl2 parents yg kne buang ngan anak2*he sobbed.."jangan buat abah macam ni.." we won't laa abah.. you are my everything. how come we sampai hati to do that.

my dad, yg agak temper..bukan agak arr..tp mmg. everyone takot wif him.. my cousin xberani to make any mistake infront him. nak kne ceramah, buat la..huhu. kami anak2 die ni lagi laa. apa yang abah xsuke, we won't do that. but it's never make us*me and my siblings* hate abah. he such a hero for us. a great man that could ever replace with anyone. he gives all what we want. he gives us all his love. he always make sure we have all what we need. abah xkesah xde baju raya, but he will mengelabah when bju ank2 xbeli lagi.. even i'm here now. he will drop by just to take me out to buy bju raya. abah dtg kl semata2 for it. semata2 to buy me bju raya.

when the exam is just round the corner. aku start xsenang duduk. everyday call abah. exam mode really make me sick! how busy he is, how tired he is, he will layan borak2 with me, even for awhile. 2years i've been here. and almost 6 times i've sit for shiken=exam, *if i'm not mistaken, plus shiken kt sni is so horrible! fail 2 subject leh kne dismiss.* abah never miss visit me here. support me. take me out just to release my tense.

i still remember, last kimatsu=final exam.
"abah, next week exam. abah ble nak datang?"
"abah ngah busy agi ni. election kan da dekat. tp nanti da settle abah pegi."
but a day after dat, abah da beli tiket to kl. he leave his job to a fren even he know he has the responsibility on it.

"adik, abah sampai ptg ni. balik laa umah k.ya. nanti kte g makan tomyam nak?"*ngee..my fav*
owhh.. pengorbanan seorang ayah kepada anaknya. he leave everything there just come to belanja me tomyam.. he will do anything for his children. he don't care with what will happen next. he just want to see his children happy. just it!

everytime i sit for the exam, before i step in to the hall. i will call him to get my strenght.
"hari ni abah blk tau. jawab leklok. kalau xleh jawab, ingat abah ada kat tepi =]". i smile. thnx abah, i'll do my best. i'll make sure that i'll give the best for you.

but, i never do that. i'm never give the best for my dad. since in JAD, i'm never get the excellent rslt. i always make him frustrated with me. tapi bab duet laju lak. abah pnh said to me.
"ni anak saudagar ni. belanja duet cam air."
i'm not really worry bout the money. i'm not even care bout it. what i know is, shop,shop and shopping again. but now, i should realize. abah dah tua,sakit lagi tu. project pn susah nak dapat. kurangkan hang out, shuchu benkyoushimasu. this is my last year i'm here. i won't care with anything. i should prove them. i can do it! abah..mattetene..mou sukoushi.*abah tggu eik..jap je lagi* i'll make sure i'll pass the exam and dpt fly sne. bile da kat nihon nnt, i'll make sure you and mak will get a chance to go there. i promise you!

to those who still have parents outside there, appreciate them. they had make lot of sacrifices to us. jgn hampakan dorg..nanti ble dorg dah xe..kte akan sangat2 menyesal.....